I am going to list post because, for whatever reason, I can’t seem to form a functional and coherent thought that will translate into an actual flowing monologue – so instead, you get this random soliloquy about my week.

I’m sorry in advance…

I woke up at 5 AM on a Saturday morning. What I really should be doing, instead of writing this blog, is pulling together a grocery list and going shopping before the hordes and hordes of people inundate my local grocery chain and make the experience one that sucks in monumental proportions.

Man it was hot here yesterday. I think people expect it to automatically start cooling down all across the country when September arrives, but it sure doesn’t here. The record high was 112 for yesterdays date – I just tried to see if we reached that yesterday, but I’ve given up. You’ll just have to understand that I’m still working on my first cup of coffee, so some things must be sacrificed.

So, how come every time I sit down to write up my meal plan or whatever, it seems like I just take the foods we normally eat and move them around to different parts of the week? How can I introduce new foods that are equally easy and good? It seems we’re stuck in a ‘go-to-food’ rut. I really *need* to go grocery shopping, but I also don’t want to buy the same things over and over again.

Is it just me or does it seem like the Blog Comment Spammers came out in full force on on Sept 1 and haven’t stopped yet? Of my several blogs (and the blogs I support) I’ve gotten 50-100 spam comment notification emails per day.

I need to go see if I can find some meal ideas so I can go to the store. Plus, I can’t seem to concentrate, so this post is really starting to suck.

I need to figure out what I’m going to do for the kitchen experiment too…arf

Ugh.

• So sick of hanging up on people with my face when I call them on my cell phone.
• I need to find a headset so I can complain about something else.
• My email everything electronic is totally freakin hosed.
• I didn’t realize, until I broke down last night in a puddle of tears, how much stress I am under – I feel pretty stupid.
• I have had the overwhelming desire to smoke the last few days.
• I’ve resisted, don’t worry.
• I have had super-vivid dreams the last 6 nights, to the point that my sleep is almost totally restless.
• I’m not sure the concealer can hide the bags any more.
• Heck, I’m not even sure I’m going to try.

Sorry about the pitty party. I’m having kind of a rough go. Change is super hard…

[Edited to add: I kicked something and my toe really freakin hurts - this may be the straw people.]

I haven’t done a list post in some time and with all the transition going on, I have  a lot to talk about – so let’s get this party started, shall we?

• The kid went to Texas, rather unexpectedly, last Saturday. He came home yesterday. I sure enjoyed being ‘childless’ for a week. It’s a break we don’t get to often with family being so far away.
• My stepmom is having surgery next week. She is having a kidney removed because they found cancer in it. I’m really hoping everything goes well. It’d be great if you could keep her in your thoughts too
• It’s been super humid here in the Phoenix area for the last three days. My hair isn’t made for this, but it certainly has made for some interesting weather.
• I really hate taking Prednisone – I hate what it does to my face/skin at non-therapeutic levels.
• The cat bite from last week is doing really well. In fact, I am typing using all of my fingers, which is awesome, because Thursday-Saturday was super hard. I can’t bend the knuckle all the way, but I do have use of it – and the redness/inflammation that is indicative of infection has almost totally gone away.
• I think I’m going to wear jeans today. It’s supposed to be a cool 100 degrees – but I got some new jeans I want to ‘test drive’.
• We cleaned out the kids room this weekend while he was gone. It was a mess. I like doing that about once a year – it gives me a chance to get rid of a bunch of junk, since he’s a collector.
• When cleaning, we actually found a book on ‘collecting’ and both laughed.
• I am super anxious about starting my new job. It’s kind of like the first day at a new school, only for grownups.
• The rain has caused our house to make some interesting noises. The noise I just heard sounded pretty ominous – like cracking/breaking cement. Man would that suck.
• The cat that bit me is back in front of my house this morning (I just saw him/her) – which means, the owners elected to go pick him/her up from the animal control place then bring him/her home and let him/her wander around outside some more.
• It also means they have decided not to call me regarding the bite. I’m sure that’s because they assume I’ll sue or something – which I won’t, since my finger didn’t fall off or anything like that.
• I wonder if I should call animal control again? Not a big fan of having the crazy biting cat hanging out in my front yard (oh wait, never mind, she’s in my back yard now…awesome).
• I think the kid and I are going to go to Sunsplash on Friday. Maybe. Ugh. Bathing suit.
• Medical update: Feeling pretty good – I think a lot of that is due to the reduction in stress though. Seeing a light at the end of the tunnel and knowing it’s not a fast moving train really does make a difference.

That’s all I got for now folks. I’m hanging in there – hoping the next two weeks go smooth and fast.

Everyone loves a list post, yay!

• Dermatology Dr. was uneventful – turns out I have fungal infection. Turns out, it’s not minor. Turns out, when I called and said I needed an appointment and the lady said “three weeks” and I said, “Ok, but there is definitely something going on and I kind of need to see him PDQ, if there is a cancellation, can you please call me, I’m just across the street and I can be there in like 3.8 minutes” I should have, instead, told her I needed to get in sooner? I don’t know – I’m confused…I thought I’d done that. Oh well. I’ve got cream and if that doesn’t work, I get to go to Mayo…where they don’t accept my insurance, yay! Ugh.
• Came home last night and decided to inquire about refinancing the house, to take advantage of the low interest rate. Ended up jumping in with both feet and decided overnight, that probably wasn’t a good idea, given everything else currently going on – so I’m putting that on hold for 4 weeks.
• Last night at 1 AM, my dog became that dog. You know the one I mean…the dog in your neighborhood that bark, bark, barks all night long for no reason that can be identified other than to be a utter and complete nuisance. I got up, fed her, gave her water, let the cat in, in case the cat being out in the backyard was really creating a spacial problem for her and basically told her to shut up before I turn her into some delicious fajitas. It worked, for an hour and 34 minutes. She started again at 2:34 – only this time, for about 5 minutes. She was quiet until 4:06 and after a night of being up and down and not being able to sleep, I finally said screw it.
• I’ve got some other news. It’s good.
• I get to go back to the regular lab this week rather than the hospital lab. And I only have to go twice. I like that a lot better.
• My hair is finally long enough to wear in a pony tail – so why am I really itching to cut it off?
• My stepmom, who I love dearly, is going to the surgical oncologist tomorrow to find out more about having her kidney removed. She has cancer in her left kidney and they’re at the stage now where they’re trying to make decisions about the next steps (surgery, radiation, chemo). If you’ve got a minute, a spare thought/prayer for her would be great.
• The old man totally ignored me for two hours last night while playing video games – the kitchen was a mess (and is still a mess this morning) and the threat I made last week about finding a cleaning person didn’t seem to make an impact – I guess it’s time to actually put the plan in motion. Ugh.
• I finally deleted over 500 ‘Server Down’ text messages from my phone this weekend. It’s really annoying, because each message is given a unique ID from which it comes – so it’s not like I had 500 stacked messages – I had 500 individual messages that required me to click “Edit” then “Delete” 500 times. It was a good time.
• I’ve got to do some shopping this weekend – would love some ‘live feedback from the dressing room’ – if anyone is interested. I really suck at clothes shopping and I *gotta* do this!

That’s pretty much all I got right now. I’m working on my second cup, about to go take a shower and then head into the office a little early.

Yay @ Good news tho – super excited

*Today’s blog title is brought to you by my inability to think of something meaningful to title this post

Well, it’s Tuesday. I don’t know what that means exactly, except that it’s the second (or third, depending on your views) day of the week. I’m going to list post – it’s just easier and we have a lot of ground to cover folks:

• I am officially ‘faking it’ today. I have to because I really need to go to work. So, if you look at me today and see me smiling, don’t misunderstand that for feeling better…because I don’t. I wish I did, but I don’t.
• I was so sick yesterday I didn’t end up going to work – I ended up going to the hospital for labs so my Dr. could get a stat reading on my AST/ALT numbers – the result was “Ugh, seriously Brandy, what in the hell is wrong with you?! Up your steroids some more and go back every morning this week for a new reading. I’m trying to go out of town here damnit!” (Don’t you just love Dr.’s?)
• My chair is lose or something because when I move it makes a noise that’s really high pitched and it’s driving me crazy.  I really should get that old man of mine to flip it over and take a look at it before I go tumbling to the floor – which would be equally funny and sad – but only if there were a camera rolling, because without the camera, it’d just be sad.
• I wish there were a way to block someone on Twitter without unfollowing them. Honestly, there are a couple of people that just send me round the bend – but the fallout from unfollowing them would be so dramatic and moronic – it’s just not worth the effort – so instead, I read their tweets, roll my eyes and move on.
• One of my biggest pet peeves is lack of communication and/or lack of response to emails, but I find that I’m becoming ‘that person’ because my ‘give a crap’ meter has finally broken after being pegged out for the better part of five years.
• The very worst part of freelance work/contract work for me is having a client who never has time to talk about their project and when they do, they expect you to drop everything you’re doing to be available for them – I used to play that game and I think I’m finally at a point now where I’m done. This can apply to so many parts of my life
• Sick or not sick, this weekend I will paint several rooms in my house. I’m getting sick of looking at them and wishing they’d paint themselves.
• The old man installed a ceiling fan in the kitchen this weekend – best decision ever. It gets hot in there when/if I cook.
• Do you ever find that you sensor your thoughts/feelings when you blog? I do and I hate that.
• The old man’s allergies are killing him. You’d think, it being the end of June and it being eleventihundred degrees outside, the problem wouldn’t be as bad – but it seems to be getting worse!
• I wish I knew what my life’s calling was. It’d make this journey I’m on so much easier.
• I remember when I used to think I knew what it was…and I was doing it. That was so awesome.
• It’s true what they say about loving your job and never working a day in your life…of course, when something happens and it goes away – it’s like a death in the family.
• I just sent an email to the old man and the kid about helping around the house. I’ve drawn my line in the sand – they can either get with it or pay for someone to come ‘get with it’ for them – I’m not the effing maid around here and I’m getting sick of it (on top of already being just plain old freakin sick).

Well, I’ve got a crap ton of things to do today – go to the hospital for labs, go to work, come home and be a bitch on wheels.

*sigh*