I just kind of felt like writing…

I’ve been sitting here for like 10 minutes trying to decide what to title this post. Then I just decided to start writing and I figured, eventually, it would come to me. It’s probably going to be a list post, because it seems to make more sense considering I’ll be touching on a wide-range of topics.

• I finally went to California and got all of my stuff. Somehow, Teresa (an awesome friend of mine from high school that went with me) and I managed to play a mad game of Human Tetris and get everything loaded into a 17 ft. UHaul truck. It’s funny to think about the fact that just two months before, we played the same game in Mesa and used a 26 ft. truck.
• The UHaul truck they gave me was so filthy and covered in dead bugs that when I got into it to leave on Monday afternoon, it was infested with ants. Ants that tried to eat me alive while I drove. Ants that caused at least three infected spots on my legs and a whole shit-ton of blisters all over my chest and neck. Even ant spray wouldn’t kill the little monsters.
• This morning, when I went to get into the UHaul to back it up so we could unload the bed — the ants were still there.
• I’m enjoying, very much, having my ‘space’ here at my dads. I think it really helps us be able to communicate better.
• He calls me on my cell phone when he needs me :p
• As we were driving through New Mexico, the AC in my car stopped working — thankfully, by the time we got to the dealership and they got in it to see what the deal was, it started working again. Diagnosis: It was frozen
• Jerrett got enrolled in school today. He’s become so hard to live with that even getting him to go do that was like pulling teeth.
• I had hoped to have more ‘back-up’ in the parenting department — but it looks like that’s probably not going to happen, sadly.
• I’ve got Dr.’s appointments every day next week, except Thursday. One in Dallas, two in Ft. Worth and one in Decatur.
• The oncologist wanted to start me on a medication last week, but I was afraid of the side effects and the impact they might have on my ability to complete my trip to California — so I waited until the day I got home to start them. You may have seen my post on Facebook about shaking like a Parkinson’s patient — I’m still doing it and it’s annoying as hell. Couple that with the requirement to complete a half a ream of paperwork today to enroll Jerrett in school and you get the idea.
• I officially write like an old person.
• I did some research today on the type of cancer they are telling me I have — I really, really should NOT have done that. I realize, from personal experience, that the info you get on the internet is often one-sided and bleak — but I was reading actual medical websites, so I don’t know. All I know is that Tuesday can’t get here fast enough.
• Even with my new sleeping meds, reduction of caffeine intake and regular exercise, I am still only getting about 3-4 hours of sleep per night, which is good I guess — if you consider I went four days without even an hour of sleep the week before last, then regularly got 1-2 hours of sleep after that. Eh, I don’t know.
• I went to a concert with some friends last Friday — that was a ton of fun. Still trying to get used to the whole sitting around drinking water while everyone else is drunk thing — but it’ll get easier.
• There’s a new Facebook Group where people are sharing their memories of my home town (Boyd, TX) and it’s a ton of fun to read some of the stuff.
• The only clothes I have now that fit are some old Levi’s — everything else is so big it looks like a tarp when I wear it. That’s super frustrating and super fantastic all at the same time.
• My to-do list is looking more and more manageable these days. I have really put a lot of focus into getting things done so that I can do some ‘me’ stuff after school starts and not worry about having to complete a whole ton of things in order to make it happen.
• I sure am thankful for my friend Misty — she lets me talk about death and dying and she doesn’t make me feel like an ass for doing it. She lets me be real and being real is important to me right now.

So — that about does it I think. I’ve had a lot going in the last three months — some I touched on, some I didn’t. I just felt the need to write tonight, so what you see is what you get

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